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Hey bloggers out there! I'm backs, Sorry I haven't been blogging much but hey I think my viewers have had enough of me talking about my love life and ramming about some A-hole for now! But don't worry I'm fine. He's totally out of my system :)

Anyways, I think the things I need to express would be one important factor of life. Money. For once I'm actually saying that money is a contributing factor on how a person can live. People say that they don't care about money but we use it for everything; bills, food, all essentials a person must have in order to survive. I've never had to lift a finger for money but ever since, I've decided to go on this Gold Coast trip I've realized how extremely hard it is to save money ... I'm stuggling and there's also the feeling guilt for taking my parents money all the time. I feel selfish even when they say its okay but its not.. well that's how I feel about it. Like today, I told my parents that I really admired these shoes from Bon Bons they were $149.95 down to $79. That is pretty awesome. They felt awesome! I felt like I MUST obtain them. So I brought up the conversation to my parents saying that I absolutely MUST have them! So dad was like .. HECK! Here's $100. I was screaming with joy inside. But later, I thought to myself thinking "Do I really need these shoes? Cause they are JUST shoes?" So I thought.. maybe I should give the money back as I thought it was the right thing to do as a daughter. I didn't want to get a bubble tea cause I wanted to save money why would I want these shoes. Yes, I know.. bubbletea and shoes are two different thing but the only similarity is that your spending money to get what we want.

Money is really doing me in the head. It's stressful. Being stressed is my specialty but I guess I just don't want to bother my parents with money all the time. I just don't know what to do to help them back. You know?. They've helped and supported me for 17 years. Hmmm.. what is there to do?

Mood= confused and frustrated :\